Live in the moment, live now. Ignore the future, and forget the past. Wise advice, and so hard to stick to. Sylvia Plath’s quote today deals with something I can completely identify with.
The hardest thing is to live richly in the present without letting it be tainted out of fear for the future, or regret for the past
Usually it’s about the future. What if this happens, what if that doesn’t, blah, blah. blah. When I am at my worst, I worry about the past as well. I dive headlong into the darkest pools in my mind, and dredge up all of the past indiscretions, wrong decisions, and regrets I can find, and bring them to the surface, like fish caught in a net.
Then I can wind myself up, until something that happened, ooh, about 15 years ago, has suddenly become the reason for everything in my life that isn’t quite right today. I spend so long dissecting whatever this terrible event was, that I forget that, actually, my present is quite good. Now is fine. I like now.
And so it goes on, usually hormone-fuelled, or event-driven, until I can’t analyse anything anymore, and my mind actually gets bored with it, and I move on to something else (something simpler, like what’s for tea).
It is an affliction, and a product of depressive times, and struggles with anxiety, but something that many of us just can’t control. It is hard to live in the present if we cling on to the past, and fear the future.
What happened years ago generally has no bearing on our lives, and nobody knows what the future holds, so why worry about it? This is rational! This makes sense!
But we’re human, we’re all flawed, and sometimes the irrational takes over. Thankfully I have a very calm husband, who helps, and yoga is always an option!