Heartbroken

Have you been heartbroken? Did you think you would never recover? Unrequited love? Join the club. Today’s quote from Sylvia is interesting, but I don’t agree.

When you give someone your whole heart and he doesn’t want it, you cannot take it back, it’s gone forever.

blog heartIf you have ever been in love, and fallen out of love, or loved someone who didn’t love you back, then you will have, at some point, have nodded in agreement with Sylvia’s quote above. (Actually you will most likely have wailed in agreement, wine in hand, or is that just me).

When Bridget Jones sang All By Myself in her comfy pyjamas, and necked a bottle of wine, destined to be alone forever, so she thought, I could empathise. I was that soldier.

I have been heartbroken, I have been depressed, I have felt unrequited love at its most painful. But, I have firmly held on to my heart – I must have, because I am now (smugly – Bridget Jones fans will know what I mean ) married to my wonderful husband, my partner of almost 10 years.

But heartbreak, although thankfully not permanent, is horrible, and if you are feeling like this today (and yes, Valentine’s Day sucks when this is the case), then I am truly sorry for you.

Heartbreak led to reactive depression in my life. It was serious. I couldn’t get over the fact that I had been left, and at the age of 33 I struggled to imagine that I would ever be happy again.

Susceptible to depression, I sunk straight back into that big black hole, and it took  me a wee while to get back out, and the help of the right people, and the right stuff for me at that time.

But is my heart with my ex? HELL NO! I know that my loss was of the bigger picture, the ideal, the life, rather than the actual person, and the chemical reaction we like to call love.

He didn’t want to be with me, and, really, I didn’t want to be with him–I just wasn’t admitting it to myself at the time. My heart firmly remained, and remains, mine!

 

 

 

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  1. February 14, 2016 / 18:47

    So true! I love this quote too, glad you’re in a better place now X

    • Merle
      February 15, 2016 / 11:49

      Thanks! It is a great quote. x